It is what it is

70 plus hours a week broken down:

classroom hours = 15

work hours = 30

study hours = 15 (at least)

law review hours = 3

extracurricular crap to add to the resume = 4

responding to e-mail = 2

Advice?   Learn to appreciate the phrase “it is what it is” because it is exactly that.

long time gone

Remember the Dixie Chicks?  They have this song called “Long Time Gone” and it is just the perfect song for the moment.

I’ve been missing in action here for way too long.  Why? Time and life.  So, please allow me to catch you up on all things Kel.  You may want to sit down, or scroll down to the end.

In March I starting to realize that my relationship with J wasn’t what I wanted.  After some soul searching and a Barrister’s Ball gone wrong J broke up with me.  He accused me to cheating on him, even though I never did and never would have.  So I moved out and in with a classmate.  Then I moved out of her place and in with another classmate where I am at now, currently lying on the floor staring at the ceiling and typing this as soon as it comes to mind.  Writing has always freed me.

It’s not easy ending a four year relationship.  And it definitely isn’t easy learning that the man you’re with, that you were engaged to, is no longer the man you want to be with and no longer a good fit for you.  He won’t talk to me.  And there are days when I miss our friendship so much I silently cry.

Then, because I’m not the sharpest knife in the block, I started a relationship with someone else who was also completely wrong for me.  But he taught me a lot about myself and I am grateful for that and ready to move on.

In between I’ve worked for two law firms, one of which I’m still working for, and began my last year in law chool.

People say that law school sucks the life out of you.  I believe this is true.  I no longer am the person I was five years ago.  My brother even told me that my hippie status had been revoked.  So, I’m back to writing.  Maybe it will bring me back to me.

Politics

I hate how political things become in law school. I’ve become scrappy, and while it is a nice change, it makes me nervous. I don’t do well biting my tongue.

Women in Law Wednesday

So I’ve been working for a Judge this semester, a female Judge with an all female staff.  There are two externs: myself and another 2L John. The two of us are basically competing for a clerkship here as this Judge only hires from her extern pool.  And I have the feeling that I lost that clerkship opportunity even before I began working here.  Why?  John is nice to look at.  Seriously.

So while I continue to get a great deal of criticism over my hard work (work that I receive no guidance on whatsoever) all I hear about is how funny John is.

And then there is the part about John having worked as a paralegal for years before law school, so again I feel like I am at the bottom.  That I would be considered the “scraping the bottom of the barrel” if hired.

This whole experience actually made me want to extern for men so that I could bank off my sexuality.  And then I got mad at myself for thinking that.  I’m beginning to dislike the “hiring” world.  I’m beginning to hate the fact that being a woman complicates everything.

Reason #$%@! why law review is ridiculous

I’m sure there are plenty of journals out there that provide a positive, learning experience.  Mine is not one of them.  We are just now getting feedback on our bluebooking.  It would have been nice to get this feedback months ago and not now when I really could care less.  Further, how well we bluebook is considered in our editor applications.

I blame the leadership.

Women in Law Wednesday

So I’ll admit, my life is busy right now.  But I recently learned a few gems about my school that frustrated me.

First of all I attend a state publicly funded law school.

Second, this school has several clinic programs, law review, and an invitation only moot court program.

My frustration lies in the fact that I’ve heard or have been told that each of these programs tries to balance between the number of men and women.  Specifically, that men are chosen over more qualified women because men have to be represented.  Excuse me?

I have a male friend who was specifically told that he was chosen for a sought after clinic position because they needed men.

I also have a male friend who was specifically told that he was chosen for the moot court program because men needed to be represented.

It’s also time for law review positions and a male friend of mine was told he would be guaranteed a position because men rarely apply and need representation.  Excuse me?  I worked my ass off to get to this point.  I’m already underrepresented in law school and now my school is denying opportunities to women because we’re more qualified or too many of us apply?

I find this very disturbing yet I’m not in a position where I can confirm it.  If men don’t want the positions why bother making sure they’re represented?  Ridiculous.  Absolutely stupid!

Time suck

Today I have spent a considerable amount of time organizing my new computer.  When I purchased my MacBook I bought the One to One service which takes everything off your old computer and puts in on the new one.  I told them the problem with my old one, that the memory failed, and they told me that it wouldn’t be a problem.  Well, it turned out to be a problem.

The Apple techs must like easy streamlined work because they couldn’t pull the data off my old computer and transfer it.  So I asked for a refund went over to a computer store, purchased the device I needed for  $25 and have been pulling the data off myself.  It’s not hard to do, it just takes some time.  And now I have to organize it all on the new Mac.

So far, the PC to Mac switch has been extremely easy.  And fun.🙂